SO! As someone who is intent dealing with her trauma background I read. I read books on healing, restoring hope, traumatic brain damage, neuroscience, etc. If it deals with how to deal with the reality of having been through what I have been through, then I read up on it. Sometimes that is not a…Read more Sympathy for the Devil Crap
About the time I start to wonder if I should be judged harshly for my decision to extricate myself from the family of origin and its tentacles that extended, a health care or specialist of some kind affirms my decision and I feel less like a monster and more like a human being who simply…Read more Toxic people, situations, or environments.
Last night we went out for a bit to a little bar on the corner, across from the Civic Auditorium and next door to the Fox theater. The one man band played 'writing music,' a friend called it: a lone guitar, a little harmonica, and some perfectly placed tech set the mood. I was reminded…Read more A night out
My history as a accounting/bookkeeping clerk seems to be part of the "plan" that the psych lady was pressing for, or it is now. I was pulling a file on my desk and out dropped the table of contents of a book I was reading to learn bookkeeping and set up to take the certification…Read more The beans spilled into my lap – thus the “plan” begins
Had a scene with the therapist and walked out before I lost my temper entirely. Overall...that's good. I felt the control in my hands. SO really good on the part. There is nothing worse than feeling like I have no emotional control. Not so good, her incessant question about what my plan is...? It boggles…Read more The Plan
The wiki on nervous breakdowns for those who are unfamiliar. I'm sitting here in the study trying to crochet. And then can't. I have lunch, and want to throw up. I look at the books on my desk and consider them. Then I don't. I can't organize the desk...my OCD kicked in on that one…Read more So you have had a nervous breakdown…now what?
I can't. I just can't. Not today. There is too much going on in my head. So today...I'm just going to attend my spiritual side and read a book on energy, light, reactivity, and being proactive. And I'm going to see if I can't get my head to calm down. The medication is working so…Read more Ugh!